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石川啄木 ローマ字日記 明治42年(1909年)4月17日〜4月21日


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石川啄木 ローマ字日記
 明治42年(1909年)4月17日〜4月21日

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17 TH, SATURDAY.
 10ji goro ni Namiki kun ni okosareta. Yo wa Namiki kun kara Tokei wo Shichi ni irete mada kaesazu ni iru. Sono Namiki kun no Koe de, fukai, fukai Nemuri no Soko kara yobisamasareta toki, Yo wa nan to mo ienu Fuyukwai wo kanjita. Tsumi wo okashita mono ga, koko nara Anshin to doko ka e kakurete ita tokoro e, Junsa ni fumi-komareta nara konna Kimochi ga suru ka mo shirenu.

 Dôse omoshiroi Hanashi no ari-yô wa nai. Muron Tokei no Saisoku wo uketan demo nande mo nai ga, futari no Aida ni wa fukai Seikaku no Hedatari ga aru ................. Gorky no koto nado wo katari-atte 12ji goro wakareta.

 Kyô koso kanarazu kakô to omotte Sha wo yasunda ―― ina, yasumitakatta kara kaku koto ni shita noda. Sore wa to-mo-kaku mo Yo wa Sakuya kangaete oita " Aka Ink " to yû no wo kakô to shita. Yo ga Jisatsu suru koto wo kaku no da. Nôto e 3mai bakari wa kaita ...... soshite kakenaku natta !

 Naze kakenu ka ? Yo wa tôtei Yo-jishin wo Kakukan suru koto ga dekinai noda. Ina, To-ni-kaku Yo wa kakenai ―― Atama ga matomaranu.

 Sore kara " Mokichiism " to yû Dai de katte " Nyû-kyô-ki " ni kakô to omotte ita koto wo kako to shita ga .............

  Furo de Kindaichi kun ni atta. Ima Jinbo Hakase kara Denwa ga kakatte kita ga, Karafuto-yuki ga kimari sô da to yû. Kindaichi kun mo odoroite iru shi, Yo mo odorokazaru wo enakatta. Iku to sureba kono Haru-chû darô to yû koto da. Kabafuto-chô no Shokutaku to shite ' Giriyaku ' ' Orocko ' nado yû Dojin no Kotoba wo shiraberu ni yuku no da sô da.

  Furo kara agatte kite Tsukue ni mukau to kanashiku natta. Kindaichi kun ga Kabafuto e yuki taku nai no wa, Tôkyô de Seikwatsu suru koto no dekiru tame da : mada Dokushin de iro-iro na Nozomi ga aru tame da. Moshi Yo ga Kindaichi kun dattara to kangaeta. Ah, ah !

  Ma mo naku Kindaichi kun ga, " Doppo-shû Dai-ni " wo motte haitte kita : soshite nakitaku natta to itta. Soshite mata Kyô-ichi-nichi Yo no koto bakari kangaete ita to itte, itamashii Metsuki wo shita.

 Kindaichi kun ni Doppo no " Hirô " sono ta 2, 3 pen wo yonde moratte kiita. Sore kara Kabafuto no iro-iro no Hanashi wo kiita. Ainu no koto, Asa-zora ni Habataki suru Washi no koto, Fune no koto, Hito no hairenu Dai-shinrin no koto ..................

  " Kabafuto made Ryohi ga ikura kakari masu ? " to Yo wa tôta.

  " 20 yen bakari deshô."

  " Hm―m," to Yo wa kangaeta ; soshite itta. " Atchi e ittara nan ka Boku ni dekiru yô na Kuchi wo mitsukete kuremasen ka ? Junsa de mo ii ! "

  Tomo wa itamashii Me wo shite Yo wo mita.

 Hitori ni naru to, Yo wa mata iya na kangae-goto wo tsuzukenakereba naranakatta. Kongetsu mo mô Nakaba-sugi da. Sha ni wa Zenshaku ga aru shi ............ soshite, kakenu !

  ' Subaru ' no Uta wo naosô ka to mo omotta ga, Kami wo nobeta dake de lya ni natta.

  Akiya e haitte nete ite, Junsa ni tsurerarete iku Otoko no koto wo kakitai to omotta ga, shikashi Fude wo toru Ki ni wa narenu.

 Naki-tai ! Shin ni naki-tai !

"Danzen Bungaku wo yame yô." to hitori de itte mita.

  " Yamete, dô suru ? Nani wo suru ? "

 " Death ! " to kotaeru hoka wa nai no da. Jissai Yo wa nani wo sureba yoi no da ? Yo [no] suru koto wa nani ka aru darô ka ?

 Itsuso Inaka no Shimbun e de mo ikô ka ! Shikashi itta tote yahari Kazoku wo yobu Kane wa Yôi ni deki sô mo nai. Sonnara, Yo no Dai-ichi no Mondai wa Kazoku no koto ka ?

 To-ni-kaku Mondai wa Hitotsu da. Ika ni shite Seikwatsu no Sekinin no Omosa wo kanjinai yô ni narô ka ? ―― kore da.

  Kane wo Jibun ga motsu ka, shikarazunba, Sekinin wo Kaijo shite morô ka : Futatsu ni Hitotsu.

  Osoraku, Yo wa shinu made kono Mondai wo shotte ikaneba naranu darô ! To-ni-kaku nete kara kangae yô. (Yoru 1 ji.)


18 TH, SUNDAY.

  Hayaku Me wa samashita ga, okitaku nai. To ga shimatte iru no de Heya no naka wa usu-gurai. 11ji made mo Toko no naka ni mozokusa shite ita ga, Sha ni ikô ka, ikumai ka to yû, tatta hitotsu no Mondai wo mote-amashita. Ikô ka ? Ikitaku nai. Ikumai ka ? Iya, iya, sore de wa warui. Nan-to mo Ketsumatsu no tsukanu uchi ni Jochû ga mô Tonari no Heya made Sôji shite kita no de okita. Kao wo aratte kuru to, Toko wo agete dete yuku Otsune no Yatsu : 

  " Sôji wa O-hiru sugi ni shite yaru kara, nê, iide shô ? "

  " Ah." to Yo wa Kinuke shita yô na Koe de kotaeta. " ―― shite yaru ? Hm." to, kore wa kokoro no uchi.

 Setsu-ko kara Hagaki ga kita. Kyô-ko ga chikagoro mata Karada no Guai ga yoku nai no de Isha [ni] mi seru to, mata I-chô ga warui ―― shikamo Mansei da to itta to no koto. Yo ga inai no de Kokoro bosoi : Tegami ga hoshii to kaite aru.

  To-ni-kaku Sha ni yuku koto ni shita. Hitotsu wa Setsu-ko no Tegami wo mite Ki wo kaeta tame de mo aru ga, mata, ' Kyô mo yasunderu ! ' to Jochû-domo ni omowaretaku nakatta kara da. ' Nâni, Iya ni nattara Tochû kara dokka e asobi ni ikô ! ' Sô omotte deta ga, yappari Densha ni noru to Kippu wo Sukiyabashi ni kirasete Sha ni itte shimatta.

 Mittsu gurai no kaaii Onna no Ko ga notte ita. Kyô-ko no koto ga sugu Yo no Kokoro ni ukanda. Setsu-ko wa Asa ni dete Yû-gata ni kaeru : sono ichi-nichi, semakurushii Uchi no naka wa Okkasan to Kyô-ko dake ! Ah, Obâ-san to Mago ! Yo wa sono ichi-nichi wo omôto, Me ga onozukara kasumu wo oboeta. Kodomo no Tanoshimi wa Kuimono no hoka ni nai. Sono Tanchô na, usu-gurai Seikwatsu ni unda toki, Kyô-ko wa kitto nani ka tabe-tai to segamu de arô. Nani mo nai. " Obâ-san, nani ka, Obâ-san ! " to Kyô-ko wa naku. Nan to sukashite mo kikanai. " Sore, sore ....... " to itte, ah, Takuan-zuke !

  Fu-shôkwa-butsu ga itaike na Kyô-ko no Kuchi kara Hara ni haitte, soshite yowai I ya Chô wo itamete iru sama ga Kokoro ni ukanda !

 Nise-byôki wo tsukatte 5 ka mo yasunda no da kara, Yo wa ta-shô Shikii no takai yô na Kimochi de Sha ni haitta. Muron nan no Koto mo nakatta. Soshite, Koko ni kite isae sureba, tsumaranu Kangae-goto wo shinaku te mo ii yô de, nan da ka Anshin da. Dô-ji ni, nan no Keirui no nai ―― Jibun no toru Kane de Jibun hitori wo Shochi sureba yoi Hito tachi ga urayamashikatta.

 Shimbun Jigyô no Kyômi ga, Kôsei no Aima-aima ni Yo wo Shigeki shita. Yo wa Otaru ga Shôrai mottomo Yûbô na Tokwai na koto wo kangaeta ; soshite, Otaru ni Shimbun wo okoshite, arankagiri no Kwatsudô wo shitara, donna ni Yukwai darô to omotta.

 Bôsô wa Hate mo nai ! Hakodate no Tsunami ................... Kindaichi kun to tomo ni Kabafuto e yuku koto ........... Russia-ryô no Hokubu-Kabafuto e itte, iro-iro no Kokuji-hannin ni au koto ................

 Kaeri ni Oshi no Onna wo Densha no nake de mita. " Koishikawa " to Techô e kaite, sore wo Shashô ni shimeshite, Norikae-kippu wo moratte ita.

  Imôto ―― Oya-kyôdai ni wakare, English-jin no Evance (?) to yû Hito to tomo ni Kongetsu Asahikawa e itta Mitsu-ko kara nagai Tegami ga kite ita. " .............. Kono-goro wa Daibu Machi ni mo nare-mashite, shinogi-yasuku narimashita. De mo, kô, yawaraka na Haru-biyori wo Mado-goshi ni ukete nado orimasu to, doko mo omoidashi masen ga, tada, Furusato naru Shibutami wo omoi-dashi-masu. Nii-sama ni iitsukerarete, ano Yama-michi no hô nado, Sumire wo sagashi ni aruki-mashita Tôii no koto wo Tsuikwai itashi-masu. Nî-sama mo aruiwa sono Tôji no Arisama wo Kokoro ni o-tadori ni naru koto ga o-ari ka mo shiremasen ! .................. Watashi no Tsukue no ue ni kaairashii Fukujusô ga arimasu. Sore wo mite imasu to, Kyô, futo Furusato ga omoi-dasarete nari-masen no. Yoku Sumire ya Fukujusô wo sagashi ni, ano Hakaba no Hotori wo aruki-mashitakke ................ Soshite, iro-iro na koto wo omoi-dashimashita no. Nî-sama ni shikarareta Mukashi no koto wo omotte wa, atarashiku urande mo mimashita ―― Yurushite kudasai-mase ! Ima wa shikarare-takute mo oyobimasen !

 " Naze ano toki, amanjite Nî-sama ni shikararena-katta de shô ? Ima ni natte wa sore ga kono ue mo naku kuyashiu gozai-masu. Mô-ichido Nî-sama ni shikararete mitakutte ! Shikashi mô oyobimasen ! ............. Jissai Watashi no Kokoro gake wa machigatte-mashita ne ! ........... Nî-sama wa Ima Shibutami no tare ka to O-tayori nasutte irassharu no ? Watashi, Akihama Kiyo-ko san ni O-tegami dashitai to zonjite ori-masu ga, Hokkaido e maitte kara mada ichi-do mo dashi-masen no ............

  "Sore kara Watashi-domo ne, 5gwatsu Nakagoro wa Fujin-kwai ya Shûyô-kwai ga gozaimashite, mata Otaru ya Yoichi hômen e mairi-masu ............ "

 .......... Yo no Me wa kasunda. Kono Kokoro-mochi wo sono mama Imôto ni tsugeta nara, Imôto wa donna ni yorokobu de arô ! Genzai no Yo ni, kokoro-yuku bakari ajiwatte yomu Tegami wa, Imôto no sore bakari da : Haha no Tegami, Setsu-ko no Tegami, sorera wa Yo ni wa amari kanashii, amari tsurai. Naru-beku nara yomitaku nai to sura omô. Soshite mata, Yo ni wa lzen no yô ni Kokoro to Kokoro no hibiki-au yô na Tegami wo kaku Yûjin ga naku natta. Toki-doki Shôsoku suru Onna ―― ni-san-nin no wakai Onna no Tegami ―― sore mo natsukashiku nai Wake de wa nai ga, shikashi sore wa Itsuwari da. ............. Imôto ! Yo no tada hitori no Imôto ! Imôto no Mi ni tsuite no Sekinin wa subete Yo ni aru. Shikamo Yo wa sore wo sukoshi mo hatashite inai. ―― Ototoshi no 5gwatsu no Hajime, Yo wa Shibutami no Gakko de Strike wo yatte Menshoku ni nari, Imôto wa Otaru ni ita Ane no moto ni Yakkai ni naru koto ni nari, Yo mo mata Hokkai-do e itte nani ka yaru tsumori de, issho ni Hakodate made tsuretette yatta. Tsugaru no Umi wa areta. Sono toki Yo wa Fune ni yotte aoku natteru Imôto ni Seishintan nado wo nomashite, Kaiho shite yatta. ―― Ah ! Yo ga tatta hitori no Imôto ni taishite, Ani rashii koto wo shita no wa, osoraku, sono Toki dake na noda !

 Imôto wa mô nijûni da. Atarimae naraba Muron mô Kekkon shite, kaaii Kodomo demo daiteru beki Toshi da. Sore wo, Imôto wa ima made mo ikutabi ka Ji-kwatsu no Hôshin wo tateta. Fukô ni shite sore wa Shippai ni owatta : amari ni Ani ni nite iru Fukô na Imôto wa, yahari Genjitsu no Sekai ni atehamaru yô ni dekite inakatta ! Saigo ni Imôto wa Kami wo motometa : ina, osorakuwa, Kami ni yotte Shokugyô wo motometa. Mitsu-ko wa, ima, hiyayaka na Gwaikoku-fujin no moto ni yashinawarete, ' Kami no tame ' ni hataraite iru : Rainen wa Shiken wo ukete Nagoya no Mission School e hairi, ' Isshô wo Kami ni sasagete ' Den-dô-fu ni naru to yû !

  Ani ni nita Imôto wa hatashite Shûkyô-ka ni tekishite iru darô ka !

  Seikaku no amari ni chikai tame de gana arô; Yo to Imôto wa chiisai toki kara Naka ga warukatta. Osoraku kono futari no kurai Naka no warui Kyôdai wa doko ni mo arumai. Imôto ga Yo ni taishite Imôto rashii Kuchi wo kiita koto wa atta ga, Yo wa mada Imôto ga ljiko no naka ni ita toki kara, tsui zo Ani rashii kuchi wo kiita koto wa nai !

 Ah ! Sore ni mo kakawarazu, Imôto wa Yo wo urande-nai : mata Mukashi no yô ni shikararete mitai to itteru ―― sore ga mô dekinai to kanashinderu ! Yo wa nakitai !

  Shibutami ! Wasuren to shite wasure enu no wa Shibutami da ! Shibutami ! Shibutami ! Ware wo sodate, soshite Hakugai shita Shibutami ! ................ Yo wa nakitai, nakô to shita. Shikashi Namida ga denu ! .......... Sono Shôgai no mottomo Taisetsu na 18 nen no aida wo Shibutami ni okutta Chichi to Haha ―― kanashii Toshiyori dachi ni wa, sono Shibutami wa amari ni tsuraku itamashii Kioku wo nokoshita. Shinda Ane wa Shibutami ni 3 nen ka 5nen shika inakatta. Ni-ban -me no lwamizawa no Ane wa, yasashii Kokoro to tomo ni Shibutami wo wasurete iru : omoidasu koto wo Chijyoku no yô ni kanjite iru. Soshite Setsu-ko wa Morioka ni umareta Onna da. Yo to tomo ni Shibutami wo wasure enu mono wa doko ni aru ka ! Hiroi Sekai ni Mitsu-ko hitori da !

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 Konya, Yo wa Imôto ―― aware naru Imôto wo omô no Jô ni taenu. Aitai ! Atte Ani rashii Kuchi wo kiite yaritai ! Kokoro yuku bakari Shibutami no koto wo kataritai. Futari tomo Yo-no-naka no Tsurasa, Kanashisa, Kurushisa wo shiranakatta nan-nen no Mukashi ni kaeritai ! Nani mo iranu ! Imôto yo ! Imôto yo ! Warera no lkka ga uchisorôte, tanoshiku Shibutami no Mukashi-banashi wo suru Hi wa hatashite aru darô ka ?

 Itsu shika Ame ga furi-dashite, Amadare no Oto ga, wabishii. Yo ni shite moshi Chichi ―― sude ni ichi-nen Tayori mo sezu ni iru Chichi to, Haha to, Mitsu-ko to, sore kara Saishi to wo atsumete, tatoi nan no umai Mono wa naku-tomo, issho ni Bansan wo toru koto ga dekiru nara ..............................................................................................

 Kindaichi-kun no Kabafuto-iki wa, Natsu-yasumi da-ke iku no da sô da. Kyô wa Gengogaku-kwai no Ensoku de Ômiya made itte kita to no koto.


19 TH, MONDAY.

 Geshuku no Gyakutai wa itareri-tsukuseri de aru. Kesa wa 9ji goro okita. Kao wo aratte kite mo Hiba-chi ni Hi mo nai. Hitori de Toko wo ageta. Match de Tabako wo nonde iru to, Kodomo ga Rôka wo yuku : iitsukete Hi to Yu wo morô. 20pun mo tatte kara Meshi wo motte kita. Shamoji ga nai : Bell wo oshita. Konai. Mata oshita. konai. Yohodo tatte kara O-tsune ga sore wo motte kite, mono-iwazu ni nageru yô ni oite itta. Miso-jiru wa tsumetaku natte iru.

 Mado no shita ni Kobu-no-ki no Hana ga saite iru. Mukashi-mukashi, mada Shibutami no Tera ni ita koro, yoku ano Ki no Eda wo kitte wa Paipu wo koshiraeta mono dakke !

 Jochû nado ga Shikkei na Soburi wo suru to, Yo wa itsu demo, ' Hm, ano Chikushô ! Ore ga Kane wo min-na haratte, soshite, Yatsu-ra ni mo Kane wo kurete yattara, donna Kao wo shite Obekka wo tsukaiyagaru darô ! ' to omô. Shikashi kangaete miru to, itsu sono Jidai ga Ore ni kuru no da ?

  " Kozukai Toyokichi." nochi ni " Sakaushi-kun no Tegami." to Dai wo aratamete kaki-dashita ga, 5 gyô mo kakanu uchi ni 12 ji ni natte, Sha ni dekaketa.

 Kawatta koto nashi. Rô-shôsetsuka Mishina-rôjin ga nani ka to Yo ni shitashimitagatteru Yôsu ga omoshiroi. Kyûji no Kobayashi wa, " Anata ga Subaru to yû , Zasshi ni Shôsetsu wo okaki ni natta no wa nan-gwatsu desu ka ? " to kiite itakke.

 Kaette kite " Sakaushi-kun no Tegami " wo Rôma-ji de kakidashita ga, lO ji goro ni wa Atama ga tsukarete shimatta.


20 TH, TUESDAY.

  Rôka de Otsune ga nani ka hanashite iru. Sono Aite no Koe wa Yo no imada kiita koto no nai Koe da : hosoi, ui-ui shii koe da. Mata atarashii Jochû ga kita na to omotta ―― Sore wa 7 ji goro no koto ―― kono Hi Dai-ichi ni Yo no Ishiki ni nobotta Dekigoto wa kore da.

 Utsura-utsura to shite iru to, tare ka shira haitte kita. ' Kitto atarashii Jochû da.' ―― sô Yume no yô ni omotte, 2, 3 do yuruyaka na Kokyû wo shite kara Me wo sukoshi bakari aite mita. Omotta tôri, 17 gurai no Maru-gao no Onna ga, Hibachi ni Hi wo utsushite iru. ' Osada-san ni nita.' to, sugu Me wo tsuburi nagara, omotta. Osada-san to yû no wa Shibutami no Yûbin-kyoku no Musume de atta. Ano koro ―― 36nen ―― tashika jûshi datta kara, ima wa jû ―― jû ―― sô da, mô hatachi ni natta no da .................. Doko e O-yome ni itta rô ? Sonna koto wo kangae nagara Kanaya Shichirô kun wo omoi-dashita. Soshite uto-uto shita. Sugu mata Me ga sameta ―― to itte mo Me wo aku hodo sukkari de wa nai. Te araku Shôji wo akete Otsune ga haitte kita : soshite Hibachi no Hi wo motte yuku. Yo ga Me wo aku to,     

 " Anata no tokoro e wa ato de motte kimasu."

 " Gyakutai shiyagaru ja nai ka ? " to, Yo wa, Mune no naka de dake itta tsumori datta ga, tsui Kuchi ni dete shimatta. Otsune wa Kao-iro wo kaeta : soshite nan to ka itta. Yo wa " mnya. mnya " itte Negaeri wo shita !

 Gozen-chû, Atama ga hakkiri shite ite, " Sakaushi-kun no Tegami." wo 2 mai dake kaita. Soshite Sha ni itta.

 Sakuya Kawasaki no Temae ni Kisha no Tenpuku ga atta node, Shakwai-bu no Hito-dachi wa Tentekomai wo shite iru.

  Reikoku ni kaetta. Ma mo naku Hiraide-kun kara Denwa : Tanka-gô no Genkô no Saisoku da. Iikagen na Henji wo shita ga, hm ! tsumaranai, Uta nado ! Sô omô to Uchi ni kusubutteru mo tsumaranai to yû Ki ni natte, hitori dekaketa. 5 chôme no Kwatsudo-shashin de 9 ji [made] ita. Sore kara I jikan wa Ate mo naku Densha no naka.

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 Kesa, Katakake wo Shichiya ni motte itte 60sen karita. Soshite Tokoya ni haitte Atama wo 5bu-gari ni shi, Tenugui to Shabon wo katte, sugu sono Mise no mae no Yuya ni hairô to suru to, " Kyô wa Kensa no Hi dakara 11 ji goro kara de nakute wa Yu ga tatanu." to, sono Mise no Aikyô no aru Kami-san ga oshiete kureta.

 
21 TH, WEDNESDAY.

 Sakuya Makura no ue de Tengwai no ' Chôjaboshi ' wo sukoshi yonda. Jitsugyô-kai no koto wo kakô to omotte ikkanen-kan Kenkyû shita to yû Taido ga sude ni machigatte iru. Dai-ni-gi no Shôsetsu ............ ga, kono Sakka wa Kenchikuka no yô na, Jiken wo kumi-tateru ue no osorubeki Giryô wo motte iru. Kûsô no hinjaku-na Sak-ka no oyobu tokoro de nai.

 Sôshiteru tokoro e Kindaichi kun ga, " O-yu ga aru ka." to itte haitte kite, Ueda Bin-shi ga nani ka no Zasshi e ' Shôsetsu wa Bungaku ni arazu.' to yû Ronbun wo dasu sô da to yû Hanashi wo shita. " Sore, go-ran nasai !" to Yo wa itta : "Ano Hito mo tôtô sono Kubetsu wo shinakereba naranaku natte kita. Shi wa Bungaku no mottomo junsui-na mono da to yû Ano Hito no classical na lken nari Shumi nari wo suteru koto mo dekizu, saritote, Shinbun-gaku no Keni wo mitomenu Wake ni ikanaku natte kita. Soko de sonna Ni-gen teki na Kubetsu wo tatenakucha naranaku natta-nde shô. ―― "

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 Kyô kara 3gai wa mata O-kiyo-san no Ban da. Hayaku okita.

 Tsui ni Hazakura no koro to wa natta. Mado wo akeru to, keburu yô na Wakaba no lro ga Me wo shigeki-suru.

 Kinô wa Densha no naka de futari made Natsu-bô wo kabutta Hito wo mita. Natsu da !

 9 ji ni Daimachi no Yuya e itta. Koko wa Kyonen Tokyô ni kite Sekishinkan ni ita koro, yoku iki-tsuketa Yuya da. Ôkii Sugatami, Kimochi yoki Fummuki, nan no kawari wa nai. Tada ano koro ita 17 bakari no Otoko-zuki rashii Onna ga, Kyô wa Bandai no ue ni inakatta. Ichi-mai-garasu no Mado ni wa Asa no suga-suga-shii Nikkô ni Awoba no Kage ga yurameite ita. Yo wa ichi-nen-zen no Kokoro-mochi ni natta. Sansuke mo Kyonen no Yatsu da ............ Soshite Yo wa hageshii Tokyô no Natsu ga sugu Me no mae ni kiteru koto wo kanjita. Sekishinkwan no Hito-natsu ! sore wa Yo ga hijô-na Kyôhaku no Chii ni i-nagara mo, sôshite tatoi Hannen no aida de mo Kazoku wo yashinawaneba naranu Sekinin kara nogarete iru no ga ureshikute, Sô da ! narubeku sore wo kangaenu yô ni shite " Han-dokushin-mono " no Kimochi wo tanoshinde ita Jidai de atta. Sono koro Kwankei shite ita Onna woba, Yo wa Mamo-naku sutete shimatta. Ima wa Asakusa de Geisha wo shite iru. Iro-iro no koto wa kawatta. Yo wa kono ichi-nen-kan ni iku-nin ka no atarashii Tomo wo e, sô shite suteta ............ Yo wa, sono koro yori Kenkô ni natta Karada wo sesse to arai-nagara, iro-iro no Tsuikwai ni fuketta. ―― lchi-nen-kan no hageshii Tatakai ! ........... And, the dreadful summer is coming again on me ----- the penniless novelist ! The dreadful summer ! alas ! with great pains and
deep sorrows of physical struggle, and, on other hand, with the bottomless rapture of young Nihilist !

 As I came out of the gate of the bathhouse, the expressful faced woman who sold me the soap yesterday said to me ' Good morning ' with something calm and favourable gesture.

 The bath and the memories bring me some hot and young lightness. I am young, and, at last, the life is not so dark and so painful. The sun shines, and the moon is calm. If I do not send the money, or call up them to Tokyô, they ----- my mother and wife will take other manner to eat. I am young, and young, and young : and I have the pen, the brain, the eyes, the heart and the mind. That is all. All of all. If the inn-master take me out of this room, I will go everywhere ----- where are many inns and hotels in this capital. To-day, I have only one piece of 5rin-dôkwa : but What then ? Nonsence ! There are many, many, writers in Tokyo. What is that to me ? There is nothing. They are writing with their finger-bones and the brush : but I must write with the ink and the G pen ! That is all. Ah, the burning summer and the green-coloured struggle !


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 Kyô kara Kisha no Jikan-kaisei no tame Dai-ippan no Shimekiri ga hayaku nari, tame ni Dai-nihan no dekiru made iru koto ni natta. Shukkin wa 12ji, Hike wa 6ji.

  Yoru, Kindaichi kun no Heya ni Nakamura kun ga kita : itte hanasu. Kono Hito mo Gakko wo deru to tabun Asahi e hairu yô ni narudarô to no koto.

 Hiraide kara Genkô Saisoku no Denwa.