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石川啄木 ローマ字日記 明治42年(1909年)5月7日〜6月1日、20日間

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石川啄木 ローマ字日記
 明治42年(1909年)5月7日〜6月1日、20日

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7 TH, FRIDAY.

 7 ji goro ni okoshite moratte, 9 ji ni wa Yumichô e itta.  Soshite Hon wo Furuhonya e azukete 80 sen wo e, 5 bu-shin no Ramp to Shôgi to Tabako wo katta.  Kikyô-ya no Musume !

 Hanashi bakari sakae, sore ni Tenki ga yoku nai no de, Fude wa susumanakatta.  Sore demo " 宿屋 " wo l0 mai bakari, so re kara " 一握の砂 " to yû no wo Betsu ni kaki-dashita.  To ni kaku Kyô wa Muda ni wa sugosanakatta.  Yoru 9 ji goro kaetta.  Kikyô-ya no Musume !

 lwamoto no Chichi kara Tegami.  Nanibun tanomu to no koto.  Sore kara Kushiro no Tsubo Jin-ko no natsukashii Tegami.  Hirayama Yoshiko no Hagaki.  Satô Isen no Hagaki nado ga kite ita.


8 TH. SATURDAY. ー13 TH. THURSDAY.

 Kono muika-kan Yo wa nani wo shita ka ?  Kono koto wa tsui ni ikura asette mo Genzai wo buchi-kowasu koto no dekinu wo Shômei shita ni suginu.

 Yumi-chô ni itta no wa, zengo 3ka de aru.  Futari no Shônen wo aite ni shinagara kaite wa mita ga, omô yô ni Pen ga hakadoranu.  l0 ka kara wa iku no wo yamete Uchi de kaita.   " 一握の砂 " wa yamete shimatte " 札幌 " to yû no wo kaki-dashita ga 50 mai bakari de mada matomaranu.

 Sha no hô wa Byôki no koto ni shite yasunde iru.  Katô-shi kara deru yô ni itte kita no ni mo Hara ga warui to yû Tegami wo yatta.  Soshite, Kinô, Yumi-chô e iku to Futari wa Geshuku-ryô no Saisoku ni yowatte iru no de, Iwamoto wo Tsukai ni yatte Katô-shi ni Satô-shi kara 5yen karite morai, sore wo Ge-shuku e haratte yatta.  Kitahara kara okurareta " Jashûmon " mo utte shimatta.

 Shimizu ni wa iro-iro Kugen shite Yo kara sono Ani naru Hito ni Chokusetsu Tegami wo yari, Honnin ni wa nan de mo kamawazu Kuchi wo motomeru Kesshin wo saseta.  Iwamoto no hô wa Hiraide no Rusu-taku e Shosei ni Shûsen-kata wo tanonde oita.

 Kagiri naki Zetsubô no Yami ga toki-doki Yo no Me wo kuraku shita.  Shinô to yû Kangae dake wa narubeku yosetsukenu yô ni shita.  Aru ban, dô sureba ii no ka, kyû ni Me no mae ga Makkura ni natta.  Sha ni deta tokoro de Shiyô ga naku, Sha wo yasunde ita tokoro de dô mo naranu.  Yo wa Kindaichi kun kara karite kiteru Kamisori de Mune ni Kizu wo tsuke, sore wo Kôjitsu ni Sha wo I ka-getsu mo yasunde, Jibun no issai wo yoku kangae yô to omotta.  Hidari no Chi no shita wo kirô to omotta ga, itakute kirenu : kasuka na Kizu ga futatsu ka mitsu tsuita.  Kindaichi kun wa odoroite Kamisori wo tori age, Muri-yari ni Yo wo hippatte, Inbanesu wo Shichi ni ire, Rei no Tenpura-ya ni itta.  Nonda, Waratta.  Sosite 12 ji goro ni kaette kita ga, Atama wa omokatta.  Akari wo keshi sae sureba Me no mae ni osoroshii mono ga iru yô na Ki ga shita.

 Haha kara itamashii Kana no Tegami ga mata kita.  Sengetsu okutte yatta I yen no Rei ga itte aru.  Kyôko ni Natsu-bôshi wo kabusetai kara Tsugô ga yokattara Kane wo okutte kure to itte kita.

 Kono mama Tokyô wo nige-dasô to omotta koto mo atta.  Inaka e itte yôsan de mo yari tai to omotta koto mo atta.

 Tsuyu chikai Inki na Ame ga furi-tsuzuita.  Ki no kusaru iku-nichi wo, Yo wa tsui ni l pen mo Dakkô shinakatta.

 Yûjin ni wa tare ni mo awanakatta.  Yo wa mô Karera ni Yô ga nai : Karera mo mata Yo no Tanka-gô no Uta wo yonde okotteru darô.

 Shibutami no koto ga toki-doki kangaerareta.

 Anna ni hidoku Kokoro wo ugokashita kuse ni, mada Imôto ni Hagaki mo yatte nai.  Iwamoto no Chichi ni wa Hagaki dake.  Uchi ni mo yaranu.  Soshite Tachibana Chie-ko san ni mo yaranu.  Yarô to omotta ga nani mo kaku koto ga nakatta !

  Konya wa Kindaichi kun no Heya e itte Onna no Hanashi ga deta.  Atama ga chitte ite nanimo kakenu.  Kaette kite Yano Ryûkei no " 不必要 " wo yonde neru koto ni shita.  時善と純善 !   sono Junzen naru mono mo Shikkyô nan da ?

 Yo wa ima Yo no Kokoro ni nan no Jishin naku, nan no Mokuteki mo naku, Asa kara Ban made Dôyô to Fuan ni ottaterarete iru koto wo shitte iru.  Nan no kimatta tokoro ga nai.  Kono saki dô naru no ka ?

 Atehamaranu, Muyô na Kagi !  Sore da !  Doko e motte itte mo yo no umaku atehamaru Ana ga mitsukaranai !

 Tabako ni ueta.

 

14 TH, FRIDAY.

 Ame.

 Satô Isen ni okosareta.  5 nin no Kazoku wo motte Shoku wo sagashite iru.

 Satô ga kaette Shimizu ga kita.  Nihonbashi no aru Sakaya no Tokui-mawari ni Kuchi ga aru to yû.

 Iwamoto wo yonde Rireki-sho wo kaite kuru yô ni itte yatta.

  Iya na Tenki da ga, nani to naku Kokoro ga ochi-tsuite kita.  Sha wo yasunde iru Kutsû mo narete shimatte sahodo de nai.  Sono kawari Atama ga Sanman ni natte nani mo kakanakatta.  Nan da ka Iya ni Heiki ni natte shimatta.

 Ni-do bakari Kuchi no naka kara obitadashiku Chi ga deta.  Jochû wa Nobose no sei darô to itta.

 Yoru wa ' Jion-Kanazukai Benran ' wo utsushita.

 Shibutami mura wo kakô to omotta ga, dô shite mo Kyô ga wakanakatta kara sono mama nete shimatta.


15 TH, SATURDAY.

 9 ji ni Iwamoto ni okosareta.  Iwamoto no Chichi kara ' yoroshiku tanomu ' to yû Tegami ga kita.

 Kyô no Shinbun wa Hasegawa Tatsunosuke shi (Futabatei Shimei) ga Kichô no To, Fune no naka de shinda to no Hô wo tsutae, kisotte sono Toku wo tatae, kono nani to naku erai Hito wo oshinde iru.

 Kono goro wa daibu samukatta ga Kyô kara Yôki ga naotta.  Ame mo hareta.

 Nani mo sezu ni ichi-nichi wo sugoshita.  Yurumi hateta Ki no Soko kara, tôkarazu osoroshii koto wo kekkô seneba naranu yô na Kanji ga chira-chira ukande kuru.

 Yoru, futari no Shônen ga yatte kita.  Shimizu wa Kyôbashi no Sakaya e Detchi ni sumi-komu koto ni kimatte, Asu no uchi ni yuku to yû.

 Futari ga kaette, Ma mo naku, itsu ka kitakke Obara Toshimaro to yû Usagi mitaina Me wo shita Bunshi ga kite, Unzari shite shimatte Roku ni Henji mo shinai de iru to, nan no kan no to tsumaranu koto wo shaberi-chirashite 10 ji han goro ni kaette itta.

 " Mono wa kangae-yô hitotsu desu." to sono Otoko ga itta :  "Hito wa 50 nen nari 60 nen nari no Jumyô wo ichi-nichi, ichi-nichi herashite iku yô ni omotte masu ga, Boku wa ichi-nichi ichi-nichi atarashii Hi wo tashite iku no ga Life da to omotte masu kara, chi' to mo kurushiku mo nan to mo omowan desu."

 " Tsumari, Anata no yô na Hito ga Kôfuku nan desu.  Anata no yô ni, sô gomakashite Anshin shite ikeru Hito ga...... "

 11 ji goro, Kindaichi kun no Heya ni itte Futabatei-shi no Shi ni tsuite katatta.  Tomo wa Futabatei-shi ga Bungaku wo kirai ----- Bunshi to iwareru koto wo kirai datta to yû no ga kaisare nai to yû.  Aware naru kono Tomo ni wa Jinsei no fukai Dôkei to Kutsû to wa wakaranai no da.  Yo wa Kokoro ni taerarenu Sabishisa wo idaite kono Heya ni kaetta.  Tsui ni, Hito wa sono Zentai wo shirareru koto wa katai.  Yô-suru ni Hito to Hito to no Kôsai wa Uwabe bakari da.

  Tagai ni shiri-tsukushite iru to omô Tomo no, tsui ni Waga Soko no Nayami to Kurushimi to wo shiri-enai no da to shitta toki no yarusenasa !  Betsu-betsu da, hitori-bitori da !  Sô omotte Yo wa ii-gataki Kanashimi wo oboeta.  Yo wa Futabatei-shi no shinu toki no Kokoro wo Sôzô suru koto ga dekiru.


16 TH, SUNDAY.

 Osoku okita.  Ame ga furikomete sekkaku no Nichiyô ga dainashi.

 Kindaichi kun no Heya e itte, tôtô, toki-fuseta.  Tomo wo shite Futabatei wo Ryôkai seshimeta.  Kyô mo Iwamoto ga kita.

 Sha ni mo ikazu, nani mo shinai.  Tabako ga nakatta.  Tsukunen to shite mata Inaka-yuki no koto wo kangaeta.  Kuni no Shimbun wo dashite mite iro-iro to Chihô-shimbun no Henshû no koto wo kangaeta.

 Yûgata Kindaichi kun ni Genzai no Yo no Kokoro wo katatta.  "Yo wa Tokwai Seikwatsu ni tekishi nai."  to yû koto da.  Yo wa majime ni Inaka-yuki no koto wo katatta.

 Tomo wa naite kureta.

 Inaka!  Inaka!  Yo no Hone wo uzumu beki tokoro wa soko da.  Ore wa Tokwai no hagesii Seikwatsu ni tekishite inai.  Isshô wo Bungaku ni !  Sore wa dekinu.  Yatte dekinu koto de wa nai ga, Yô suru ni Bungakusha no Seikwatsu nado wa Kûkyo na mono ni suginu.


17 TH, MONDAY.

 Gozen wa susamashii bakari Kaze ga fuita.  Yasumu.  Gogo, Iwamoto ga chyotto kite itta.

 Kyô no Shimbun wa Futabatei shi ga Nihilist de atta koto ya, aru Mibun iyashii Onna ni kwanshita Itsuwa wo kakagete ita.

 Hiru-meshi made Tabako wo Gaman shite ita ga, tôtô, " Akogare " to hoka 2, 3 zatsu wo motte Ikubundô e yuki, 15 sen ni utta.  " Kore wa ikura nan da? " to Yo wa " Akogare " wo sashita.

 " 5 sen ---- desu ne." to Haibyô-kwanja rashii Hon'ya no Aruji ga itta.  Ha, ha, ha ............

 Kyô mo Yo wa Inaka no koto wo kangaeta.  Soshite sore dake no koto ni Hi wo okutta.  " Ika ni shite Inaka no Shimbun wo Keiei subeki ka ? mata, Henshû subeki ka? " Sore da !

 Kono Kyôgû ni iru kono Yo ga ichi-nichi nani mo sezu ni, konna Koto wo kangaete kurashita to yû koto wa !

 Yoru Makura no ue de ' Shinshôsetsu ' wo yonde sukoshiku omoi-ataru koto ga atta.  " National life ! " sore da.


31 TH, MONDAY.

 Ni-shûkan no aida, hotondo nasu koto mo naku sugoshita.  Sha wo yasunde ita.

 Shimizu no Ani kara Tegami wa kita ga, Kane wa okutte konai.

 Iwamoto no Chichi kara ni-sando Tegami.

 Kushiro naru Koyakko kara mo Tegami ga kita.

 Yo wa doko e mo ---- Hakodate e mo ---- Tegami wo dasanakatta.

 " Iwate Nippô " e, " Ijaku Tûshin " 5 kwai hodo kaite yatta.  Sore wa Morioka-jin no Nemuri wo samasu no ga Mokuteki de atta.  Hankyô wa arawareta.  " Nippô " wa " Morioka Hanei-Saku " wo dashi hajimeta.

 Shikei wo matsu yô na Kimochi !  Sô Yo wa itta.  Soshite mainichi Doitsu-go wo yatta.  Betsu ni, iro-iro Kuhû shite, Chihô-shimbun no Hinagata wo tsukutte mita.  Jissai, Chihô no Shimbun e yuku no ga ichiban ii yô ni omowareta.  Muron sono tame ni wa Bungaku wo sutete shimau no da.

 Ichido, Yôgwaka no Yamamoto Kanae kun ga kita.  Shashin-Tsûshinsha no Hanashi.


 Misoka wa kita.

 Damatte Uchi ni mo orarenu no de, Gozen ni dekakete Haori ---- tada ichi-mai no ---- wo Shichi ni irete 70 sen wo koshirae, Gogo, nan no Ate mo naku Ueno kara Tabata made Kisha ni notta.  Tada Kisha ni nori takatta no da.  Tabata de Hatake no naka no shiranu Michi wo urotsuite Tsuchi no ka wo akazu sutta.

 Kaette kite Yado e Môshiwake.

 Kono Yo Kindaichi kun no Kao no aware ni mietattara nakatta.
 


JUNE.     

     TOKYO.

 
1 _TH TUESDAY.

 

 Gogo, Iwamoto ni Tegami wo motashite yatte, Sha kara Kongetsu-bun 25 yen wo Maegari shita.  Tadashi 5 yen wa Satô shi ni haratta no de Tedori 20 yen.

 lwamoto no Yado ni itte, Shimizu to futari bun Sengetsu no Geshukuryô (6 yen dake irete atta.) 13 yen bakari harai, sore kara futari de Asakusa ni iki, Kwatsudô Shashin wo mite kara Seiyôryôri wo kutta.  Soshite Kozukai I yen kurete lwamoto ni wakareta.

 Sore kara, nan to ka yû wakai kodomorashii Onna to neta.  Sono tsugi ni wa Itsuka itte neta Koyakko ni nita Onna -- Hana -- no toko e yuki, Hen na Uchi e Obâsan to itta. Obâsan wa mô 69 da to ka itta.  Yagate Hana ga kita.  Neta.  Naze ka kono Onna to neru to tanoshii.  

 10 ji goro Kaetta.  Zasshi wo 5,6 satsu katte kita.  Nokoru tokoro 40 sen.


HATSUKA KAN.

(TOKOYA NO NIKAI Nl UTSURU NO KI. )

    HONGÔ YUMI-CHÔ 2 CHÔME     

     18 BANCHI ARAI (KINOTOKO) KATA

  Kami ga bô-bô to shite, mabara na Hige mo nagaku nari, Ware-nagara iya ni naru hodo yatsureta.  Jochû wa Haibyô-yami no yô da to itta.  Gezai wo mochii sugite yowatta Karada wo 10 ka no Asa made 3 jô han ni yokotaete ita.  Kakô to yû Ki wa dô shite mo okoranakatta.  Ga, Kindaichi kun to Giron shita no ga En ni natte, iro-iro Bungaku jô no Kangae wo matomeru koto ga dekita.

  lwamoto ga kite Yo no Kôi wo kansha suru to itte naita.

  10 ka no Asa, Morioka kara dashita Miyazaki kun to Setsu-ko no Tegami wo Makura no ue de yonda.  7 ka ni Hakodate wo tatte, Haha wa Nohechi ni yori, Setsu-ko to Kyô-ko wa Tomo to tomo ni Morioka made kita to yû.  Yo wa omotta : " Tsui ni ! "

  Miyazaki kun kara okutte kita 15 yen de Hongô Yumi-chô 2 chôme 18 Banchi no Arai to yû Tokoya no 2 kai futama wo kari, Geshuku no hô wa, Kindaichi kun no Hoshô de 119 yen yo wo 10 yen zutsu no Geppu ni shite morai, 15 nichi ni tatte kuru yô ni Kazoku ni ii-okutta.

 15 nichi no Hi ni Gaiheikwan wo deta.  Nimotsu dake wo karita Uchi ni oki, sono Yo wa kindaichikun no Heya ni tomete moratta.  Iyô na Wakare no Kanjô wa Hutari no Mune ni atta.  Wakare !

  16 nichi no Asa, mada Hi no noboranu uchi ni Yo to Kindaichikun to lwamoto to 3 nin wa Ueno station no Platform ni atta.  Kisha wa I jikan okurete tsuita.  Tomo, Haha, Tsuma, Ko ……… Kuruma de atarashii Uchi ni tsuita.

 

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