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石川啄木 ローマ字日記 明治42年(1909年)4月27日〜5月6日


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石川啄木 ローマ字日記
 明治42年(1909年)4月27日〜5月6日

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27 TH, TUESDAY.

 Ha' to odoroite Me wo samasu to Makura-moto ni O-kiyo ga tatte ita.  Naki tai kurai nemui no wo Gaman shite hane-okita.

  Kumotta Hi.

 Sakuya no koto ga tsumabiraka ni omoidasareta.  Yo ga O-en to yû Onna to neta no mo Jijitsu da : sono toki nan no Yukwai wo mo kanjinak-atta no mo Jijitsu da.  Futatabi Yo ga ano Heya ni haitte Tama-chan no hô ni kasuka ni Kurenai wo chô-shite ita no mo Jijitsu da.  Soshite Kindaichi kun ga kaeri no Michisugara, tsui ni ano Onna to nezu, tada umarete hajimete Onna to Kiss shita dake da to itta no mo Jijitsu da.  Sono Michisugara, Yo wa Hijô ni yotta yô na Furi wo shite, osoi-kuru osoroshii Kanashimi kara nigete ita no mo Jijitsu nareba, sono Kokoro no Soko no narubeku Te wo furezu ni sô' to shite okitakatta Kanashimi ga, 3 yen no Kane wo munashiku tsukatta to yû koto de atta no mo Jijitsu da.

 Soshite Kesa yo wa, Kongo kesshite Onna no tame ni Kane to Jikan to wo tsuiyasu-mai to omotta.  Tsumari Kamen da.


 Sha ni itte mo 4 Ji goro made Yo wa nani to naku Fuan wo kanjite ita.  Sore wa Raigetsu-bun no 25 yen wo Zenshaku shiyô-shiyô to omotte, Shita made iki nagara iidashi-kanete ita kara da.  4 ji ni wa Sha no Kinko ga shimaru.  Kan, kan ............ to Atama no ue no Tokei ga 4 ji wo utta toki, Yo wa ho' to lki wo tsuite Anshin shita.


 Genko-shi wo nobete Kokoro wo shizumete iru to Mado-garasu ni chirari to akai Kage ga utsutta, to dôji ni Hanshô no Oto.  8 ji goro de atta.  Mado kara Ma-mukai no Koishikawa ni Kwaji ga okotta no da.  Hi wa lkioi yoku moe, doko to naku Machi no Soko ga sawagashiku natta.  Hi !  Yo wa chikagoro ni nai kokoroyoi mono wo miru yô ni Mado wo akehanashite nagameta.

  9 Ji-han goro Denwa-guchi e yobidasareta.  Aite wa Kindaichi kun.  Nakajima kun-ra to Nihonbashi no Shôkwatei to yû Ryôriya ni kite iru ga, konai ka to yû. Sassoku dekaketa.

 40 pun mo Densha ni yurarete mezasu Uchi ni yuku to, Otoko yo-nin ni wakai Geisha hitori, Hana no Uchiyama kun ga Gara ni nai Koe wo dashite Shinnai ka nani ka wo utatte ita.

 lchi-jikan bakari tatte soko wo de, Kindaichi kun to futari Densha ni notte kaette kita.
 

28 TH, WEDNESDAY.

 Gake-shita no le de wa Nobori wo tateta.  Wakaba no Kaze ga Kazaguruma wo mawashi, Koi to Fukinagashi wo Ha-zakura no ue ni oyogasete iru.

 Hayaku okite, Azabu Kasumichô ni Satô-shi wo tazune, Raigetsu-bun no Gekkyû Zenshaku no koto wo tanonda.  Kongetsu wa dame da kara Raigetsu no hajime made matte kure to no koto de atta.  Densha no Ôhuku, doko mo kashiko mo Wakaba no iro ga Me wo iru.  Natsu da !

 Sha ni itte nan no kawatta koto nashi.  Sakuya Saigo no ichi-yen wo Fui no Enkwai ni tsukatte shimatte, Kyô wa mata Saifu no naka ni hishageta 5 rin Dôkwa ga ichi-mai.  Asu no Densha-chin mo nai.

 
29 TH, TUESDAY.

 Yasumu koto ni shita. Soshite Shôsetsu " 底 " wo kaki hajimeta.

 12 ji sugite mo dekake nai no de Kindaichi kun ga kita :

 " Anata.  Densha-chin ga nakutte 0-dekake ni naranai no ja arimasen ka ?"

 " Iie, Sore mo sô desu ga ...... yurushite kudasai.  Kyô wa Baka ni Kyô ga waite kitan desu."

  " Sô desu ka !  Son nara Sekkaku."

  Kô itte Tomo wa dete itta.

 Gogo 2 jikan bakari Satô Isen ni Jama sareta hoka, Yo wa Yasumi naku Pen wo ugokashita.

 Soshite yoru wa Kindaichi kun no Heya de okutta.


30 TH, FRYDAY.

 Kyô wa Sha ni itte mo Tabako-dai ga haraenu.  Zenshaku wa Asu ni naranakute wa Dame da.  Uchi ni iru to Misoka da kara Shita kara no Danpan ga kowai.  Dô shiyô ka to mayotta sue, yahari yasumu koto ni shita.

  " 底 " wo Dai 3 kwai made kaita.

 Kono goro Sumi-chan to yû, Se no hikui Onna no Ko ga kita.  Toshi wa 17 da to yû ga, Karada wa 14 gurai ni shika mienu.  Kono Onna ga Sakuya chotto Uchi e itte Haha-oya ni shikarare, Ani ni nan to ka iwarete tobi-dashi, Shinu tsumori de Shinagawa no Kaigan made itta ga, tô-tô shinazu ni hitori kaette kita to yû.  Koko made kita toki wa 3 ji han goro datta to yû.

 Osoroshii Ishi no tsuyoi. komashakureta, sono kuse Kaaii Onna da.  " O-kiyo san wa kaaii Ko ne." to Ji-bun yori Toshi-ue no Jochû no koto wo yû.  " Sore nan dakke …… O-tsune san ka !  ano Hito no Kao wa konna Fû da wa ne." to Hyottoko no Mane wo shite miseru.

 Yoru ni naru to hatashite Saisoku ga kita. Asu no Ban made mataseru koto ni suru.

 9 ji goro Kindaichi kun ga 2 yen 50 sen kashite kureta.  Sono toki kara Kyô ga satta.  Nete, Makura no ue de, Futabatei yaku no Turgenef no " Rudin " wo yomu.

 Fukai Kangai wo idaite nemutta.

 

    MAY.

TOKYO.
1 TH, SATURDAY.

 Kinô wa ichi-nichi Nuka no yô na Ame ga futte ita ga, Kyô wa Kirei ni harete, Hisashi-buri ni Fuji wo nagameta. Kita no Kaze de sukoshi samui.

  Gozen wa " Rudin. 浮草." wo yonde kurashita. Ah ! Rudin ! Rudin no Seikaku ni tsuite kangaeru koto wa, sunahachi Yo-jishin ga kono Yo ni nani mo okoshi enu Otoko de aru to yû koto wo Shômei suru koto de aru ……………

 Sha ni iku to Satô-shi wa Yasumi : Katô Kôseichô wa nan de ka mukunda yô na Kao wo shite ita. Waza to Kinô yasun da liwake wo iwazu ni Yo mo damatte ite yatta.

  Zenshaku wa Shubi yoku itte 25 yen karita. Kongetsu wa kore de mô toru tokoro ga nai. Sengetsu no Tabako-dai 160 sen wo haratta.

  6 ji han ni Sha wo deta. Gozen ni Namiki kun ga kite Rei no Tokei no Hanashi ga atta node, sono 25 yen no Kane wo dô Shobun sureba ii ka ……… Tokei wo ukeru to Yado ni yaru no ga taranaku nari, Yado ni 20 yen yareba Tokei wa dame da ……… kono Samatsu na Mondai ga Atama ippai ni hadakatte yôi ni Ketsumatsu ga tsukanai. Jissai kono Samatsu na Mondai wa shinô ka shinumai ka to yû koto wo kessuru yori mo Yo no Atama ni Konnan wo kanjisaseta. To ni Kaku kore wo kimenakereba Uchi e kaerenai.

  Owarichô kara Densha ni notta. Sore wa Asakusa-yuki de atta.

  " O-norikae wa ? "

  " Nashi."

  Kô kotaete, Yo wa " mata iku no ka ? " to Jibun ni itta.

  Kaminari-mon de orite, soko no Gyû-ya e agatte Yû-meshi wo kutta. Sore kara Kwatsudô-shashin e haitta ga, chittomo omoshiroku nai. " Subaru Tanka-go " wo Zasshi-ya de katta.

  " lku na ! iku na ! " to omoi nagara Ashi wa Senzoku-machi e mukatta. Hitachi-ya no mae wo so' to sugite, Kinkwatei to yû atarashii Kado no Uchi no mae e yuku to Shiroi Te ga Kôshi no aida kara dete Yo no Sode wo toraeta.  Fura-fura to shite haitta.

  " Ah ! sono Onna wa ! Na wa Hana-ko. Toshi wa 17. Hitome mite Yo wa sugu sô omotta :

  " Ah ! Koyakko da ! Koyakko wo futatsu mitsu wakakushita Kao da ! "

  Hodo naku shite Yo wa, O-kwashi-uri no usu-gitanai Bâsan to tomo ni, soko wo deta. Soshite hôbô hippari-mawasarete no ageku, Senzoku Shôgakkô no Urate no takai Rengwa-bei no shita e deta. Hosoi Kôji no Ryôgawa wa To wo shimeta Ura-nagaya de, Hito-dôri wa wasurete shimatta yô ni nai : Tsuki ga tette iru.

  " Ukiyo-kôji no Oku e kita ! " to Yo wa omotta.

  " Koko ni mattete kudasai. Watashi wa ima To wo akete kuru kara." to Bâsan ga itta.  Nan da ka kyoro-kyoro shite iru. Junsa wo osorete iru no da.

  Shinda yô na Hito-mune no Nagaya no, tottsuki no Uchi no To wo shizuka ni akete, Bâsan wa sukoshi modotte kite Yo wo Tsukikage ni Ko-temanegi shita.

  Bâsan wa Yo wo sono Kimi warui Uchi no naka e ireru to, " Watashi wa sokoira de Hari-ban shite imasu kara." to itte dete itta.

  Hana-ko wa Yo yori mo Saki ni kite ite, Yo ga agaru ya ina ya, ikinari Yo ni daki-tsuita.

  Semai, kitanai Uchi da. Yoku mo minakatta ga, Kabe wa kuroku, Tatami wa kusarete, Yane-ura ga mieta. Sono misuborashii arisama wo, Nagahibachi no Neko-ita no ue ni notte iru Mame-ranpu ga obotsukanage ni terashite ita. Furui Tokei ga monouge ni natte iru.

  Susubita Hedate no Shoji no kage no, 2 jô bakari no semai Heya ni hairu to, Toko ga shiite atta……… Sukoshi waratte mo Shôji ga kata-kata natte ugoku.

  Kasuka na Akari ni ji' to Onna no Kao wo miru to, marui, shiroi, Koyakko sono mama no Kao ga usu-kurai naka ni pô' to ukande mieru. Yo wa Me mo hosoku naru hodo uttori to shita Kokochi ni natte shimatta.

  " Koyakko ni nita, jitsu ni nita ! " to, ikutabi ka onaji Koto bakari Yo no Kokoro wa sasayaita.

  ".Ah ! konna ni Kami ga kowareta. Iya yo, sonna ni Watashi no Kao bakari michâ ! " to Onna wa itta.

  Wakai Onna no Hada wa torokeru bakari atatakai.  Rinshitsu no Tokei wa kata'-kata' to natte iru.

  " Mô tsukarete ? "

  Bâsan ga shizuka ni Uchi ni haitta Oto ga shite, sore nari Oto ga shinai.

  " Bâsan wa dô shita ? "

  " Daidokoro ni kaganderu wa : kitto."

  " Kaai sô da ne."

  " Kamawanai wa."

  " Datte, kaai sô da ! "

  " Sorya kaai sô ni wa kaai sô yo. Honto no Hitori-mono nan desu mono."

  " Omae mo Toshi wo toru to aa naru."

  " Iya, Watashi ! "

  Soshite shibaraku tatsu to, Onna wa mata, " Iya yo, sonna ni Atashi no Kao bakari michâ."

  " Yoku niteru."

  " Donata ni ? "

  " Ore no Imôto ni."

  " Ma, ureshii ! " to itte Hana-ko wa Yo no Mune ni Kao wo uzumeta.

  Fushigi na Ban de atta. Yo wa ima made iku-tabi ka Onna to neta. Shikashi nagara Yo no Kokoro wa itsu mo nani mono ka ni ottaterarete iru yô de, ira-ira shite ita, Jibun de Jibun wo azawaratte ita. Konya no yô ni Me mo hosoku naru yô na uttori to shita, Hyôbyô to shita Kimochi no shita koto wa nai. Yo wa nani goto wo mo kangaenakatta : tada uttori to shite, Onna no Hada no Atatakasa ni Jibun no Karada made attamatte kuru yô ni oboeta. Soshite mata, chikagoro wa itazura ni Fuyukwai no Kan wo nokosu ni suginu Kôsetsu ga, kono Ban wa 2 do tomo kokoro-yoku nomi sugita. Soshite Yo wa ato made mo nan no lya na Kimochi wo nokosanakatta.

  l jikan tatta. Yume no I jikan ga tatta. Yo mo Onna mo okite Tabako wo sutta.

  " Ne, koko kara dete Hidari e magatte futatsu-me no Yokochô no tokoro de matterasshai ! " to Onna wa sasayaita.

  Shin to shita Ukiyo-kôji no Oku, Tsukikage Mizu no gotoki Suidô no Waki ni tatte iru to, yagate Onna ga Kôji no usugurai Kata-gawa wo Geta no Oto karoku kakete kita.  Futari wa narande aruita. Toki-doki Soba e yotte kite wa, " Honto ni mata irasshai. ne ! "


  Yado ni kaetta no wa 12 ji de atta. Fusigi ni Yo wa nan no Kôkwai no Nen wo mo okosanakatta. ' Hyô-byô taru Kimochi ' ga shite ita.

  Hi mo naku, Toko mo shiite nai. Sono mama nete shimatta.


2 TH, SUNDAY.

 O-take ga kite okoshita.  " Ano ne, Ishikawa san, Danna ga ima o-dekake ni naru tokoro de, dô deshô ka, kiite koitte ! "

  " A-a, sô da.  Yûbe wa ammari osokatta kara sono mama neta." to ii nagara, Yo wa nemui Me wo kosuri nagara Saifu wo dashite 20 yen dake yatta.  " Ato wa mata 10 ka goro made ni."

 " Sô desu ka ! " to O-take wa hiyayaka na, shikashi kashiko sô na Me wo shite itta.  " Sonnara Anata sono koto wo Go-jibun de Chôba ni osshatte kudasai masenka ?  Watashi domo wa tada mô shikararete bakari imasu kara."

  Yo wa sono mama Negaeri wo utte shimatta.  " A-a, Yûbe wa omoshirokatta ! "

  9 ji goro de atta : Chiisai Jochû ga kite, " Iwamoto san to yû kata ga oide ni narimashita." to yû.  Iwamoto !  Hate na ?

  Okite Toko wo agete, yobiireru to hatashite sore wa Shibutami no Yakuba no Joyaku no Musuko ------ Minoru kun de atta.  Yado wo onashiku shita to yû Tokushima-ken umare no ichi-Seinen wo tsurete kita.

  Minoru kun wa Yokohama ni iru Oba san wo tayotte kita no da ga, 2 shûkan oite moratta nochi, Kuni made no Ryohi wo kurete dasareta no da to yû.  Sore de, Kuni e wa kaeritaku naku, zehi Tôkyô de nani ka Shoku ni tsuku tsumori de 3 ka mae ni Kanda no to aru Yadoya ni tsuita ga, Kyô made Yo no Jûsho ga shirenu no de Kushin shita to yû.  Mo-hitori no Shimizu to yû hô wa, kore mo yahari Uchi to kenkwa-shite tobi-dashite kita to no koto.

 Natsu no Mushi wa Hi ni mayotte tobi-konde shinu. Kono Hito tachi mo Tokwai to yû mono ni Genwaku sarete nani mo shirazu ni tobi-konde kita Hito tachi da : yagate yake-shinu ka, nige-dasu ka, futatsu ni hitotsu wa manukaremai.  Yo wa iyô naru Kanashimi wo oboeta.

 Yo wa sono Mubô ni tsuite nan no Chûkoku mo sezu, ' aseru na, Nonki ni nare ' to yû koto wo kurikaeshite itta.  Kono Hito tachi no Zento ni wa kitto Jisa-tsu shitaku naru Jiki ga kuru to omotta kara da.  Minoru kun wa 2,30 sen, Shimizu wa I yen 80 sen shika motte inakatta.

  Shimizu kun to Yo to wa nan no Kwankei mo nai.  Futari isshio ni de wa kongo Minoru kun wo sukû toki komaru kamo shirenu.  Shikashi Yo wa sono Shôjiki rashii Kao no Kokoro-bosoge na Hyôjô wo mite wa kono mama wakare saseru ni wa shinobinakatta.

  "Yado-ya no hô wa dô shite arun desu ?  Itsu demo derare masuka ? "

 " Derare masu.  Yûbe haratte shimattan desu. .................. Kyô wa zehi dô ka suru tsumori dattan desu."

  " Sore jâ to-ni-kaku dokka Geshuku wo sagasanakute wa naran."

 10 ji han goro Yo wa futari wo tsurete dekaketa.  Soshite hôbô sagashita ue de, 弓町二ノ八 豊嶋館 to yû Geshuku wo mitsuke, 6 jô hitoma ni futari, 8 yen 50 sen zutsu no Yakusoku wo kime, Tetsuke to shite Yo wa ichi-en dake O-kami ni watashita.

  Sore kara Rei no Tenpura-ya e itte 3 nin de Meshi wo kui, Yo wa Sha wo yasumu koto ni shite, Shimizu wo Yado e Nimotsu wo tori ni yari, Yo wa Minoru kun wo tsurete Shimbashi no Station made, soko ni azukete aru to yû Nimotsu wo uketori ni itta.  Futari ga hiki-kaeshite kita toki wa Shimizu wa mô kite ita.  Yo wa 3 ji goro made soko de iro-iro Hanashi wo shite kaette kita.  Yo no Saifu wa Kara ni natta.


 Kyô Yo ga Minoru kun kara kikasareta Shibutami no Hanashi wa Yo ni totte wa tae-gataki made iro-iro no Kioku wo yobi-okosaseru mono de atta.  Shôgakkô de wa Wakui Kôchô to Kanaya no Nobu-ko san to no aida ni Myô na Kwankei ga deki, Shokuin-shitsu de Yakimochi-kenkwa wo shita koto mo aru to yû.  Soshite Kyonen yamete shimatta Nobu-ko san wa, dô yara Hara ga ôkiku natte ite, chikagoro wa sukoshi Ki ga Hen da to yû Uwasa mo aru to ka !  Numada Seimin shi wa Kataku-shinnyû-zai de Shokei wo uke, 3 ka nen no Kei no Shikkô Yûyo wo eteru to yû.  Sono hoka no Hito tachi no Uwasa, hitotsu to shite Yo no Kokoro wo tokimekasenu mono wa nakatta ----- Waga ' Hotaru no Onna ' Iso-ko mo ima wa Isha no Otôto no Tsuma ni natte Hirosaki ni iru to yû !

  Yo no Shôsetsu 鳥影 wa mata angwai Kokyô no Hito ni shirarete iru to no koto da.

  Yoru, Yo wa lwamoto no Chichi ni Tegami wo kakô to shita.  Naze ka kakenakatta.  Sapporo no Chie-ko san ni kakô to shita ga sore mo kakezu, Mado wo hiraku to yawaraka na Yo-kaze ga nesshita Hô wo nadete, Kâb ni kishiru Densha no Hibiki no Soko kara Furusato no koto ga Me ni ukanda.


3 TH, MANDAY.

 Sha ni wa Byôki-todoke wo yatte, ichi-nichi nete kurashita.  O-take no Yatsu Baka ni Gyakutai suru.  Kyô wa ichiniti Hi mo motte konai. Sumi-chan ga choi-choi kite wa Tsumi no nai koto wo shabette iku.  Sore wo Raku-chan no Yatsu-me, usankusa-sô na Me wo shite mite iku.

  lya na Hi !  Zetsubô shita hito no Yô ni, tsukare-kitta Hito no yô ni, omoi Atama wo Makura ni nosete ................. Kyaku wa mina kotowaraseta.


4 TH, TUESDAY.

 Kyô mo yasumu.  Kyô wa ichi-nichi Pen wo nigitte ita.  " 鎖門一日 " wo kaite yame, " 追想 " wo kaite yame, " Omoshiroi Otoko ? " wo kaite yame, " 少年時の追想 " wo kaite yameta.  Sore dake Yo no Atama ga Dô-yô shite ita.  Tsui ni Yo wa Pen wo nage-dashita.  Soshite hayaku neta.  Nemurenakatta no wa Muron de aru.

 Yûgata de atta, Namiki ga kitakke. Sore kara lwamoto to Shimizu ga cho'to kite itta.  Yappari Yo wa Nonki na koto bakari narabete yatta.


5 TH, WEDNESDAY.

 Kyô mo yasumu.

 Kaite, kaite, tôtô matome kanete, “ 手を見つつ ” to yû Sanbun wo hitotsu kaki-ageta no ga mô Yû-gata : Maebashi no Reisô-sha e okuru.


6 TH, THURSDAY.

 Kyô mo yasumu.  Kinô Kyô sekkaku no Yasukuni-jinja no Saiten wo himosugara no Ame.

 Asa, Iwamoto, Shimizu no Futari ni okosareta.  Nani to naku shizunda Kao wo shite iru.

 " Kono mama de wa dô mo naranai !  Dô ka shinake-reba naranu ! " to Yo wa kangaeta.  " Sô da !  Ato isshû-kan gurai Sha wo yasumu koto ni shite, ôi ni kakô.  Sore ni wa koko de wa ikenai.  Iwamoto no Yado no Akima ni itte, Asa'kkara Ban made kakô.  Yoru ni kaette kite neyô."

 Soshite Kane ga dekita-ra 3 nin de toriaezu Jisui shiyô to kangaeta.  Kindaichi kun ni mo hanashite Dôi wo eta.

 Genkôshi to Ink wo motte sassoku Yumichô e itta.  Shikashi kono Hi wa nan ni mo kakazu, futari kara iro-iro no Hanashi wo kiita.  Kikeba kiku hodo kaaiku natta.  Futari wa hitotsu Futon ni ne, nibu-shin no Ramp wo tomoshite sono Yukusue wo katari-atte iru no da.

 Shimizu Mohachi to yû no mo Shôjiki na, soshite naka-naka shikkari shita tokoro no aru Otoko da.  2 nen bakari Chôsen Keijô no Ani no Mise ni itte ita no wo, zehi Benkyô shiyô to omotte nigete kita no da to yû.

 Yo wa Atama no Soko ni uzumaite iru iro-iro no Kangae-goto wo Muri ni, osaetsukete oite, futari no Hanashi wo kiita.  Shimizu wa Chôsen no Hanashi wo suru.  Yo wa itsu-shika sore wo Nesshin ni natte kiite, " Ryohi ga ikura kakaru ? " nado to tôte mite ita.  Aware ' !

 Yoru 8 ji goro kaette ki, chotto Kindaichi kun no Heya de hanashite kaette neta.

 Kyô kakô to omoi-tatta no wa, Yo ga genzai ni oite tori-uru tada hitotsu no Michi da.  Sô kangaeru to kanashiku natta.  Kongetsu no Gekkyû wa Zenshaku shite aru.  Doko kara mo Kane no hairi-yô ga nai.  Soshite Rai-getsu wa Kazoku ga kuru ................. Yo wa ima Soko ni iru ...... Soko !  Koko de shinu ka koko kara agatte iku ka.  Futatsu ni hitotsu da.  Soshite Yo wa kono futari no Seinen wo sukuwaneba naranu !